Happy New Year

It's 2016. I'm 29 now. Sort of. New year resolution? Yeah I don't have one. To be exact I ain't gonna make one because I'm too unmotivated and lacking in determination to keep one until I achieve it. Though if I have to make one, then maybe I'd hope to become more resolute this year. This year I will be studying again. A Master's degree this time. I'm 29 y.o. already but still I decided to continue to be unemployed. I know some people around me don't quite approve my decision. It's okay, I get it. I'm not gonna say that my decision is the correct or the better one. I understand that working experience might be more essential than your academic qualification. Being jobless at my age would most probably cause me a huge problem in getting jobs in the future. I'm fully aware that this decision of mine might bite me in the ass some time in the future. I chose this because I like it. Not to say that I like it like I really like to study per se, it's just that I like it more than working a job. Ideally, I would still like to work in a laboratory of some sort. It's my dream to be a scientist and a researcher. I did try to apply some when I was looking for a job but I didn't get even one interview. Although I didn't exactly try my hardest to get a job and just half-assing my job hunting. Truth is, I like to live a simple life. Maybe I'm just sugarcoating my laziness but whatever. It may be why I'm still a student even now. And single, again. Once in a while, I'd get depressed when I see people around me living their lives, having families, climbing up the ladder in their careers etc while I'm still stuck here, penniless and alone. And yeah sometimes I'd try to improve myself to follow their footsteps. But then I realized that I don't really want all that. Or at least not right now. I think, essentially, all of us do what we do to be happy and to be content with what we have and what we've achieved. When I look at those around me, I see that and that what makes me want to follow their leads. But in the end, I found that I already have them, happiness and content in my life, and the more I try to copy their life choices, the more unsettling I get. And I think this is why I've become so lazy and unmotivated. It is why I chose to be single again, why I still don't get a job, why I still want to study. A simple, uncomplicated life. I'm not saying this is right but that's just how I'd like my life to be, I guess. For now. Money, power, and fame; these three things are what most men strive to gain. I think even if I've got all of them, I'd still be locked in my room, reading books and manga and surfing fun stuff in the internet most of the time. Lol I'm so zen and shit.